Saturday, July 3, 2010

Update 32

Israel!!!!!! I have been here for almost a week. I love it here. I feel like its home. My trip has alot of socially challenged people whose parents probably insisted that they go on the trip to meet new friends and possibly their soul mates. At first when I met everyone at the airport I thought I had just signed up for the worst 2 weeks of my life. I called my best friend and said "what the hell was I thinking??? How am I going to connect with anyone and not want to kill these annoying people or myself??" Then I met the most amazing girl in the world! I actually feel like she is my Bashert, lol! Its like we have known each other for 20 years. I told her that I was supposed to meet my soul-mate on this trip and then she said "well, stop looking you already found me!" And it was sooo true!! I hope you are not worried that my blog is taking a lesbian turn cause its not ;) But I actually feel so connected to her. I am so chilled and not stressed or boy crazy here. I am just hanging out with her and we are having the best time! We are making the best of what g-d has given us to work with! We are the only two girls on the trip that brought a hair dryer, straightening iron and make up. Naturally the other girls spent most of last week hating us and gossiping about us. It felt like the twighlight zone. At home we are both popular and have tons of friends and here we are the minority and we are the social outcasts!! I admit, I got a very interesting perspective after being on this side. I can imagine how someone with low self esteem who was being threated like this from a whole group would have a very hard time. We just embraced the bitchy stereotype and had our own fun! Soon enough we adopted another sweet girl and then a few more joined our crew. They wanted help with their hair and tips about make up. We made a decision on shabbat that we would be nice even though they were all so rude at the beginning. I have been so chilled out on this trip. Drinking every night and just having so much fun. There is one cool guy I guess he will have to be number 41 (I will do that post soon) and the Israeli soldier that is assigned to our group is the most attractive guy in the universe but he is engaged... I have been bbming some of the boys from back home and I still really like the accountant. I need this time to grow and maybe when I get back I will better know myself and what I want. I just feel happy to be here in Israel. It feels so right.

8 comments:

  1. I hope you start do enjoy Israel more. I have never been and am Jewish, although I am divorced from an Israeli I met in the US. What bothers me about these trips that are put together to go to Israel is that they are very age-related. When I hit thirty they wanted me to go on singles trips for 30s and 40s. The 20 somethings got a seperate trip. I think our society is too ageist and also to snobbish. Whenever I went to camp, I felt like you are feeling now - like I am having a problem with the girls in some way. It really destroyed the Jewish experience for me. I used to go to Sinia Temple, but will not set foot in there. It is snob-hell.

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  2. your posts were so promising in the start of your journey but I really feel like I'm reading a 14 year old's diary now. Grow up.

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  3. It's always tough going into a situation where you don't know anyone. Sadly, some people never mature and these high school-like situations can happen. It's nice that you're a bigger person and have looked past some of the gossip from your trip. Enjoy it!

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  4. You may be on the trip my friend is on... I wonder how many of these trips happen at the same time.

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  6. "Social degenerates"??? Aren't you supposed to be a therapist, or counselor?

    While, admittedly, many twenty somethings can be socially awkward or limited, its also true that they can be judgemental and cruel, as you have just made painfully clear. I wonder if you re-read your blog...you made a commitment to be LESS judgemental and now, you immediately wrote your whole group off, basically upon laying eyes on them. Then, they had to EARN merit for you to bestow your friendship upon them?

    You 'adopted' another sweet girl? Your merits are that you can give tips on hair and makeup?

    You posts continue to illustrate how far you are from being a compassionate, sensitive woman, and rather portray a superficial little girl waiting for her white knight to sweep in and save her from having to take any responsibility in her life.

    I am SO glad you aren't my counselor.

    Grow Up. This trip is an opportunity to stretch the bounds of your comfort zone and grow as a person. I hope you find it in yourself to utilize all that Israel has to offer and take a little time to grow spiritually and hopefully, mature a lot.

    No wonder none of your dates work out. Any man of quality wants a woman who can be a partner. Not a child to have to take care of.

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  8. I can't believe the haters that post comments here. Screw them. Your blog is awesome. I love it.

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